MKeyes Disclaimer

Okay, get this - everything here - is about me, what I'm feeling and thinking at the time I write it. I may not always be right, but if I wrote it here, it was heavy on my mind and well, there you go! So - because I'm 47, -(4 years later - 51)- growing, changing, living, learning, I may look back a year or two from now and feel differently about what I wrote, so - if I make it to the big time, end up on a talk show, Oprah's or Larry King, don't be pulling from this blog, because I'm going through menopause right now, ain't no telling what I might say, okay? Cool... ciao!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Finally... The story of "Belle"

The new movie, "Belle" showing - May 2, 2014 at a theatre near you - finally!

I must admit to being very excited about this movie. The story is of my style of storytelling. In fact, years and years ago as far back as in the 80's - her story helped inspire my story of Princess Ces'alena. It was the first of my trilogy - Webster Fields. This trilogy can be found at Amazon - Princess Ces'alena. Anyway - while researching Webster Fields I ran into the story of Belle - along with it, the story of Europe's historical secret - Queen Charlotte - yes, she was very mixed and built up from black ancestry. 


In any case - I am going to keep the focus on this beauty who is being played by, Gugu Mbatha Raw. Her eloquence alone explains why she was chosen for this role. For me, I am one of those die-hard believers that there are thousands of amazing, exciting stories to be told surrounding love between and over the color lines. Our history with Hollywood has not been a pretty, fair, or just one. For years the truth surrounding historical events has been altered and white washed - bleached so many times that we're far beyond the insult of it all. Too many times they depicted characters in stories that would have been so much more rich and vibrant had they stuck to the truth and been honest in the telling. How hard can it be to be real, honorable and accurate in these tales? 

What do I mean? Examples...
  1. Cleopatra
  2. Moses's wife -(Ten Commandments)
  3. Noah - (All white - no black folks to be found)
  4. King Solomon & The Queen of Sheba
You see what I mean right?

God's world of beauty comes in many luxurious shades and so many come out of BLACK! Brown, Honey, Caramel and Olive - and yes - too white! But not in EVERYTHING! The hair of our heroines weren't always flaxen glossy, long and silky. Some of them had tight kinky hair to loose tendrils that were many shades. For instance - the face of today that is FINALLY proving just how beautiful and desirable black really is.
Need I say more? Ha!
Our world that is dominated by this entire and complete white thing - is not true in the real world. However, by very extreme and slow degrees - things are beginning to look as if they might possibly be changing - but oh is it ever slooow. 

Point is, I want to see a world that is as colorful on TV and in the movies as it has been in real life. This is why I write what I write and how I write it. This is why I am sooo excited about "Belle"... because the fashion industry and the movies are starting to be honest in that beauty is more than and certainly not always WHITE.

Let's please move a bit faster in the fact that...
  • All the heroes cannot be white!
  • All the leads cannot be white!
  • All the damsels in distress - not white!
  • All the greatest loves of white knights - aren't.... white!
  • All the beauties that face their beast - nope - not - white!
May 2nd 2014 - I will certainly be among those lining up for this amazing and long awaited movie and I sure hope this will not be the last. True, programs on TV are starting to be daring and bold ie; Scandal and such other shows - but still there is more to be done. In the meantime... pass the popcorn and shhh - "Belle" is on!




Saturday, April 5, 2014

Oh my Aching...

Yep, the picture says it all! 
It's what is happening to me, after realizing my greatest desire and dream is to write! I was 23 years old when I came to that conclusion, and that was after reading hundreds of novels and gaining from them, what I would and would not do IF I were to ever write. Now, 28 years later and after 19 novels, there's more on my mind than what I will, or will not have in my novels.


Today, my problem is - how do I sit down, as I once did and pour from my mind onto the keyboard what will spray onto the MS WORD computer paper all that I imagine without being distracted by my pain! OUCH!
 There it goes again... the pain... yeesh!
 At 23 years old, (pay attention all of you writers in your 20's) the last thing, concern or worry that was on my mind, was what aches and pain I might suffer down the road, because let's face it, there weren't any! None, oops, not true... I was married to quite the pain in the butt, but that's another story. I mean, the pains I suffer from today, did not exist back then, and oh my goodness, let me tell you, the stories would just pour like a flood from my head and I couldn't type fast enough to get it written. Now, today... at the age of 51 - the stories are still in my head, dying to be poured out, however the pain in my neck -(that has worsened in fact)- distracts me! Frankly speaking, it pisses me off. It's not fair, I still have many stories to tell, and I want to get them told, but it's just not the same.
Currently, I must have pain killers - just to get a decent hour or two of writing done! An hour or two!!! And not all at once in that time frame - I'm talking through the day I am awake and walking to relieve my neck and back. Yeah, that too - the back. What can you possibly accomplish in an hour or two? Yeah, yeah, I know - after seven days, that will add up, true, but it's not what I used to put out. Oh my goodness, there was a time when I could sit for 4 to 5 hours and just none-stop type without looking up. This with three children and the youngest begging for food! LOL, sad, but true - don't worry, his big sister was good at making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, or Ramen noodles to hold them off until I finally came to my feet to cook dinner, this before the two legged 'pain' got home from work.
Believe me, all has been done - even by hubby two -(no longer together)- he did all in his power to make it possible and I had a collection of keyboards, ergonomic - oh yes by Microsoft and others, 4 in total. 3 mouses, yep, ergonomic, 3 chairs, back cushions, vibrators, foot rests, neck braces, a custom built in desk for the office he customized for me, to three other desks on wheels, all bought over the years to help me get the writing done. If that weren't enough, menopause stepped up to the plate and also tapped me on the shoulder, *sigh* - thus mood swings, depression, and just plain ol'I don't give a crap anymore! (Sooo not true). And yes, as a right of passage into this age bracket, I have grown my pharmaceuticals for every kind of pain you can imagine, and a few sleeping pills. However, they ALL do the same as the pain, distract me, take my mind from my goal, which is to write.

Now that I'm single once more and still writing, still with pain, - the Key... walk away, literally, I walk! I must be ever so careful of my diet, which means that I had to lose weight, exercise and try with all my might to stay off of the pain killers, they not only take away the pain, but my will to write! Hey, I even tried mary-jane as a pain reliever and to put me in that writing place - sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't. Gave it up completely as well.


So, concentration, focus, so very fleeting - and yes, I'm on some very good vitamins and I'm eating right as well. Having stated the latter, my other key is to accept... just give in and accept that I can no longer write as I use to, because I am no longer that young woman I use to be. Over the years, I caused damage to my body that is now making me pay today.


Young writers pay attention to my words, DO NOT NEGLECT your posture, your writing station or desk, chair, keyboard or mouse. If you do, your body will make you pay just when you've gained enough from life to really write something worth reading! However, your body will laugh at you, give you migraines, neck pain, back pain, blurry strained eyes, swollen ankles and knees and muscle cramps when you try to stand! Do what you need to do NOW - to keep your body fit and ready to write.

As for me, I will not give up, I will fight to the end. It may take me a lot longer to get that chapter completed, but it will get done! I have just begun to write! Those 19 novels that have been written - hey I was just learning, and I still am, but oh have I so much more to say, and I especially like the way I'm learning to say it. In the meantime, anyone out there with a sure fire tip on how to keep the body pliant? I'm open to suggestions! Because I am determined to Write On!

This doctor is my goal! Dr. Jee - Korean with the most amazing and effective acupuncture. He treats for body balance. My daughter paid for 3 treatments and it was amazing! But, do to the building arthritis and chronic pain, I need more sessions. So, I have to build up to pay for that because my insurance doesn't cover it. UGH! Anyway... Body Balance Acupuncture! Definitely worth getting into if there's one near you! Read all about http://ecmed.org - Body Balance Acupuncture - it's the way to go! 

Monday, March 31, 2014

My Blog Tour

Mercedes Keyes

Latest release: 
Beauty of Man and Woman – Volume 13, Amazon for Kindle & Paperback!


My Writing Process – Blog Tour

First, thanks and proper props to my girl T-sis, Ryter Rong, her blog http://ryterrong.wordpress.com/ many thanks, see you on the bestsellers list!

1.)        What am I working on?
I’m working on back works and a current new project. One of the back works is one of my historicals, my first in fact. Princess Ces’alena. You can find it at Amazon on my authors page. http://amazon.com/author/mkeyes/ - Princess Ces’alena is getting a new cover as well a final clean up with a launch in Amazon’s KDP Select program! Plus – I have a drama series, Bomaw – 13 volumes that I’m updating and they too will get new covers and released as second editions.

And finally – my new current work-in-progress – Saoirse. Historical drama surrounding America’s first trial slaves – the Irish! Cromwell started it all, what a monster! Anyway, everyone speculates on why we – African-Americans are so mixed with Irish and Indian. For too long – African-American women have believed the mix came from the master of the plantation and rape! No, sorry – that is not everyone’s story, not all light skinned black women are the product of that ancestry and Saoirse will tell why!

2.)        How does my work differ from others of its genre?
My specialty is the interracial genre. How my novels or stories differ from other interracial story writers is that I’m writing to teach and inform. My primary directive is to help as few or as many as I can with this world’s dirty history of lies on racism. My aim is to tell at least one version of truth concerning our divisions. How a love between man and woman of any color was and is a beautiful thing, but the world made it ugly. I’m telling! Mixing – black women with white men or all other “non” black, and black men and white women is NOT a new thing, nor a taboo thing as it was deliberately concocted to be. There’s a world filled with rich stories and truth out there surrounding the wonders of love over the color lines. Stories that are not based on perversions, rape, erotica and taboo sex! But deep, lasting, heart-wrenching, life changing, to-die-for kinds of love – those are my stories. Way back when in history and now! As long as I can, I will be telling them.

3.)        Why do I write what I do?
It’s what I am. I’m a mix. I have a heritage based on love and sacrifice over the color lines. My Irish great-grandfather passed me something precious and with it – I write what I do.

4.)        How does your writing process work?
Well, when I’m inspired by something, the story is born in my mind instantaneously. I immediately know how it will start and the longer I ponder it – I come to how it ends. I also get flashes of what takes place within. Quickly I open MS Word and write the beginning out. I end up usually with about 25 pages or so. Then I grab my favorite pen, a fine writer with a nice grip and black ink. A fresh new paper notebook and as I write that way, the story unfolds. I write until there is nothing more coming from me. I sleep on it and then the next day – I prop my paper tablet up and open the story in MS Word that I started and begin transcribing what I’ve written to add to it.

In my transferring it, I end up with something better than what I wrote - more of it, much fatter, a richer story. I can write no other way. If I try and write fresh directly into MS Word, I get writers block. I’m going nowhere! However the moment I grab the ink pen and paper – away I go. So to avoid writer’s block the story grows on paper first and then to MS Word in the transfer. Once I run out of what I’ve hand written, I save it in MS Word, close it and turn back to writing more in the paper tablet. This process is repeated until the book is done. I rarely get writers block doing it this way.

Next Authors up Monday - April 7th…

Nikki Walker

Nikki Walker is a passionate believer in second chances! It is because of that belief and passion that she’s been dubbed as the Diva of Second chance! She has since discovered that second chances are her specialty. If you're a lover of second chances, her books are for you! Nikki fits her writing in around being a full time wife and mother. You’ll find her at Facebook and @ Google+ - and her second chance works at Amazon.


Author Latrivia Nelson

Latrivia S. Nelson is the national bestselling interracial romance author of The Medlov Crime Family Series, The Agosto Family Series and the Lonely Heart Series. She had penned 15 novels under her name and currently has over 50,000 fans in 124 countries. Along with being the President and CEO of RiverHouse Publishing, LLC in Memphis, TN, she is the proud of mother of two children and the quintessential supermom.


LaShawn Vasser
Vasser is an author of contemporary romance.  She developed a love of books and a passion for writing at a very young age.  However, it wasn't until 2013 that she published her first romance novella "Out of Nowhere".  She's a dedicated wife and mother of three. In her spare time, she loves trying new recipes and cooking big family dinners with her sisters.  Those dinners always tend to be crazy, loud, and the perfect place for juicy plot ideas!  LaShawn's mantra for life is always good food, good wine, and good friends.  That's the best recipe for a happy life.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

And my new life begins...

What new life?
A single one. You see, I've been with someone all of my life. Parents - they divorced - then with my mother who had no choice but to become a single parent - which caused me to have a few foster parents. Yeah, yeah, yeah - I've been in the system. Not entirely mama's fault - but I'm not going there right now because it would lead into a mute direction. I may speak of it later, but for now, I shall try to maintain this course. Anyway, I went from mama - sort-of-speak to my first husband at the age of 17. Me, and uh - well, my 2 year old daughter - yeah go on, do the math. That's another story.

That marriage taught me a great deal about myself, what I could be forced to endure. Being in a domestically violent marriage does that and yes, more often than not, that entire lesson episode sucked! But - it was my bed and lie in it I did. That lasted for 21 years because I was determined that my children and I would not end up like my mother and I and brothers. All split into different locations and even states. They were in Mississippi and I got Chicago. In either case, there we were, like puppies in the wild who'd crawled from the hidden den yelping and howling scared to death - wanting mom and dad - wanting back what made us feel safe and secure. Yet we were left to fend for ourselves, ah sort-of-speak. There were other people around to watch us. My brothers - the older two, they went to my grandparents. Lynn, brother three above me, went to our father. They were the fortunate ones - because I got to go with mama.

*Sigh*

My brothers hated me because of that. Because she took me with her. Yet, I wasn't with her at all, I was in
the hands of others - not gonna go there, that's another story as well. Anyway, they hated me because they thought I had mama, but loved me too, yeah, a love/hate relationship. Hmmm, a sudden epiphany - it suddenly occurred to me that both my marriages were like that. Two men who loved me, but hated me as well. Ooops, I digress. I may come back to that one day as well. Anyway, enough of that mess!

I - did not want to do that to my own children and so I stayed and fought it out for 21 years.

*Sigh*

Yeah, not a good idea. While my three beautiful children were indeed, smart, ambitious, independent, self-starters and go getters, like their mother - also, like their mother, they still ended up with ugly issues and baggage. *Soooo sorry for that my babies - I really am. I didn't know what I was doing, just trying to avoid one sack of problems and created another.* Enough of that mess!
After 21 years of marriage - with all three kids gone and into a life of their own, I left hubby one. Unfortunately I didn't take a decent break in between - like mama tried to tell me to do - at the time when she told me that, I was thinking, 'Ha! You're one to tell me!' - (Maybe I'll explain why I felt that way later) Never say that to yourself or out loud. It WILL come back to bite you in the rump! Wanna see? Still have the teeth marks.

Anyway, I knew what I was doing, right. I was in my 30's when I chose this life partner, not a young girl of 12! Yes, I did that, I determined at 12 years old that I wanted hubby number One! So I figured, surely I've learned a lot sense then - right?

*Wrong!* Ain't learn she-ite-shooky!

I fell head over heels in a BIG BIG BIG way - gave up all and everything in America and moved to England for hubby two! Don't get me wrong, this second one lasted 12 years. Seven of which we were sooo in love we could not imagine living with out the other. We went through hell with immigration and spent some serious money in flights and VISAS to get me there so we could be together. WE - were - in - LOVE! Soulmates! Destined to be together. MADE for one another. I born for him and he for me!
Our favorite place and road to walk! UK

Yet, here I am today - back in America and my new life begins. Single - how I plan to remain - yes - finally after that bite in the rump, I am going to listen to mama! Only took me 39 years to get wise, at 51 years old I grew into some sense, woke up, snapped out of it, took off the rose tinted glasses, and accepted what I knew all along - that is - that only my CREATOR knows me, my baggage, my inner make up, the whys of who I am, well enough to know what I need. (I intimidate some men! I'm too driven and they can't cope with that) So, He is the only one capable of finding my right match. From now on, I'm leaving it in his hands and getting on with my life. One where I can set priorities that won't back-fire on me. Focus on growing me up by keeping me alone with no distractions from the goal. Focus on my children, grand and all - focus on work and what I was shaped, molded and guided to do.

Write!

Me, myself and I have finally looked back to see so many events of the past where He has shown that He's been with me all along and if I'd just turned and asked, I could have saved myself a lot of sorrow, heartbreak and pain... not to mention time wasted. Lessons learned Father! So with my constant, dependable, unchanging ROCK - the Almighty - by my side - I am going to let Him guide me, direct my steps from here on out. He has great plans for me in my new life - I just have to draw close to Him to know what that is...

And today... in this new life... I am happy - to be me - who has learned how precious it is to be FREE!

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Scandal Addiction...


Look at *OUR* addiction. Is Scandal such an addiction, especially to black woman, because this day, this need, this statement, this public show, this weekly declaration is something that WE - black women have long awaited? Long needed to, well... *HEAL* our battered souls. To repair all the damage done by our leading society who said... we were of "Low" things and nothing of "Value"? 

Has Scandal... and other such stories, tapped into our hurting place? That place that HELD US DOWN within our own minds even? Many of us work hard, REALLY REALLY HARD... to shake off - as Abby put it, the crazy. The crazy of this world that nailed us to the wall of, "Anyone can use, abuse, devalue, belittle, dehumanize, buy, sale, trade, exchange and "Have one" at the right price." How long now have we carried that - *ugly* hanging note around our necks?

Has Shonda Rhimes, thru Scandal - publicly broadcasted - THIS wake up call. Has Scandal and other such literature out today that features incredibly strong, intelligent, dignified women of color - doing what WE have long felt needed, has been long overdue? Removing the note? The sale merchandise note? Saying to the world...that all of the psychological garbage that has been DUMPED on us for centuries needs to be removed... because... enough PROOF is available PROVING that our society who "branded" this to our foreheads, color, hair and moral PROFILE is FALSE! SR's Scandal says, it has always been false! Has always been a lie! Has always been a plot, scheme, TRICK... to keep us down.

Without actually saying it - we show by our NEED for Scandal ... that having that WHITE president, the supposedly most powerful man on earth - lust, long for, obsess, stalk, love, hurt, protect, love, shake and need more, and yes again... LOVE with madness over that black, beautiful, intelligent woman, OP - soothes US - black women - to the core of our injured, abused being. We have needed THIS for so long... that we literally SHAKE to get the reformation of the false claims of us that has existed for far too long. 

Some of us I know will deny it, but others will give it deep thought and know that it's true. After all... would we be THIS addicted - truly, IF POTUS in this drama series were Black? A black man? Would we, really? How many of us would even be watching, let alone addicted to it to the degree that we are? It wouldn't be enough would it, if he were black? Why? Well, mentally speaking, psychologically we instinctively FEEL that a black man SHOULD love us, sooo - we cannot really GET validation of value from him. HE - we feel IS one of us. Thus, he's fighting for his own value place, validation. 

To really FEEL the validation of value that we or some of us, and our souls need - it can only come from attracting and holding - in a honorable position - what today is - the image of power. That image is the WHITE male. Let's face it, this is for now - fair or unfair, just or not - a WHITE world. They dominate it. They hold the so called laws & fashion dictate of value. They should not - it is not JUST that they do... because it should belong to God and only God. Yet, when it comes to what many see and need, here and now - they hold the validating purse strings of value. As James Brown sang, it's a "Man's World" and even more so, for the time being, a "White Man's world."

Thus, to attract, to hold, to entrance, to captivate, and GAIN the white male, and more so a POWERFUL, gorgeous, tall and dreamy white male that looks at one of us, saying.... I NEED YOU - I LOVE YOU - I TREASURE YOU - YOU are everything to me, and I am NOTHING without YOU......... umph... yeah... come on... come on... be real...

Heals US... the black woman. And that is one of the reasons *WHY* - Scandal has gripped our GUTS and will NOT let us go. Scandal is the public declaration, that black women... are VALUABLE - beautiful - intelligent and most certainly, a worthy CATCH to have and to hold. It removes that ugly, unfair, NOTE of sale that hung around our necks. It's been gone for a long time, but the scars, the damage from it, has been done and remains!

As a writer of my own interracial drama series, surrounding black, strong, beautiful female leads, loved and adored by alpha white males... I have to think deeply about the whys of everything I see. To make sense of it, first... helpls me to write about it, second.

Just my thoughts on the matter... as a black woman - yep... I admit it, I am Scandal addicted and I thought - I did NOT have that NEED for validation or value. How wrong I was, am - because Scandal has hooked me full on and then some. And despite the inconsistencies and descrepencies from season 1 to 2 that are blaring and clear, especially if you've watched it as much as I have - which there are more than a few... even that, those inperfectios aren't enough to turn me off of this incredible milestone NEED.

M. Keyes

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Mainstream vs. Self-Publishing w/ errors, typos oops grammar oh my...

It has been a long time since I've read over various parts of Bomaw, thus forgetting things that I'd written. So I'm reading with fresh new eyes, almost like those of a reader. Yes, I see the errors as well, sorry about that. Those errors have become one of my reasons for slo-o-owing down. What so many readers must understand, and there are some who do - that being the DO ALL to publishing your own work is not as easy as one might think. Mainstream published authors get to write it, and PASS IT on. They're done. Someone else has the job of cleaning it up. They have the freedom to move on to the next project while resting a bit in between.

This is not the case for self-published. Proof-reading is a skill not all of us hold. As well editing. While the two are totally different and needed for polished publishing. Editor gets rid of excess story, removes sections as well as suggesting more meat, fat or sugar.

Proof-reading is about spelling, grammar, typos, continuity etc. etc. etc. Mainstream publishers have their editors on board as well their proof-readers. Once the author is done, their manuscript is passed on to the editor and once he or she does their magic that the author approves or rejects - and becomes the final story, it is then dropped on the proof-readers desk to clean it up.

In the end, you get a clean new fiction tale to enjoy, hopefully free of errors and inconsistencies. Basically... I - and my husband felt that self-publishing was the way to go for us. Why? Because we wanted full and complete control and ownership of everything we work to turn out.


Also, he's an editor and could do that part.Back to us in a moment, for now, to finish a point, mainstream publishing should and does for the big houses, guarantee that the readers get a clean new fiction tale to enjoy, free of errors and nconsistencies.

Down the road, our dream, James & Keyes for Amber Swann Publishing Inc. is to be a publishing house as well of quality interracial literatre. We're basically learning the ropes now with our own works. However, having said that, in the beginning, [ I ] Mercedes Keyes, did try to get into a mainstream publishing house and found that it is very close to playing the lottery. Like so many others, I found that you first need an agent - that takes quite a bit of time to find, especially one suited to you. Or in my case, to ME. After an agent, you must show you have sellable stories to tell. So they want you to show that someone is willing to buy what you write, but if you've written anything that has been sold, that cannot nor will not be taken by a publisher to redistribute.


This may have changed now, but at the time that I was doing my thing... that is the way it was. I also found out how MUCH the mainstream TAKES of your hard work. I also found that you would be under contract! Contract...hmmm, I don't mind saying, the word shakes me a bit. So after all of that, once you win the lottery of finding an agent and getting a contract, you are then TOLD what your story can and cannot have within. And you must also meet your DEADLINES. When you are ill, not feeling right, or simply speaking - suffering under writers block, then what?
In the nutshell, no no no no no... it just was not for me. For my passion of writing to run anywhere near being smooth, to flow, I cannot, nor will not be told how my story needs to go. Like any other, I suffer with writers block and simply don't feel it some days. As for the story itself, there are times when I fight with my honey, James of James & Keyes, enough as it is about certain parts, LMBO. Needless to say, the path of self-publishing was the way for us. However - the drawbacks are, typos, errors, grammar, you get it. Believe me when I say to you, that I have read, and re-read and re-read like crazy trying my best to catch errors, typos and grammatical no nos. In the end, I'm a story-teller, not an English major or proof-reader - thus... I've missed stuff. Too much stuff, enough of it for many of you readers to have complained about. So I have slowed down tremendously. You see, believe it or not, no one who loves what they do, ME a writer, does it with the intent of botching it up with errors. It's true, I, we - I'm thinking other writers, HATE that we are human with errors - lacking finance or support to catch what we miss. That is where mainstream publishing has us beat. I love being a writer, the stories I bring from my mind and I hate when I leave behind things that marks it, dirties it, scars it - devalues it. I hate going back with fresh eyes and seeing all the no-nos that have gotten by.
Some readers are not forgiving, they don't care and don't want to hear it. They want their literature perfect and they want it ON TIME... NOW! No matter how you feel, no matter how hard it is to get into that zone, no matter what's going on in your personal life. It doesn't matter to them that you may have downs, depression, going thru life changes, physical, chemical, emotional - they don't care if your loved one has passed, mother, brother - none of that means anything to too many readers. They want that story that they have come to enjoy, to be released on time, with no typos, because whatever price they may have paid for it, is a down payment on your LIFE! There have been a few, thank goodness they are only a FEW... that have actually mentioned complaining to Amazon about having to WAIT... because money was spent on previous volumes of our works. Nothing makes you want to rethink your whole direction and joy for writing faster than someone who is bold enough to express and think because they've paid, 7.95 more or less x whatever - they now OWN you, and you better get to writing, or ELSE! Believe me, there have been times when I thought... is this really worth it? Really?


And then on that thought, I'll get an email from a reader who reminds me, that in their case... yeah, they ARE worth it and I carry on. When you get an email from someone who truly understands and wants the continuation NO LESS than the others, but gets it and just wants you to know, you've been appreciated and please - they want more. Who despite the obvious errors, want YOU to please continue on with the story telling, because that means more to them than human error. For them... I write on. In the nutshell, until our earnings can see a way to having a professional proof-reader brought on board - all I can assure is this dear readers... we'll continue to try and do our BEST. Try to deliver a story worth reading. Worth forgiving the typos and grammar errors should they persist. Once we can no longer do that, we'll be hanging up the towel. But for now, we're taking a MUCH SLOWER route, which is now the current cause for complaint - but we're taking it slow. We're trying to get it right. Still haven't, but in the midst of the same world all of our readers are living in - we live in it too. We suffer from the same economical woes.

What I must mention and am so very thankful for, are the various readers so in love with Bomaw and our other stories, that they've offer themselves as Proof-readers assisting to help us polish our works before releasing. To those few, we thank them and have taken them up on their offers. Hopefully, things will get better. It's certainly the best experience to gain before we move into position to become publishers ourselves. We will know first hand exactly what various writers will need and have those services available when we arrive at that bridge to cross it.
 
That's it for now - time to get back to Bomaw - there is loads more to cover, check, research
and entangle!

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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dissin' the President, Barack O'Bama

First let me say, that I don't know if me having a blog is a good idea. I'm too stupid to keep certain things to myself, speaking my mind, is a dangerous thing, because my mind and the things in it could get me in a heap of trouble, for real!

Let me say right off, that I am SICK and TIRED of the disrespect and B.S. surrounding the current U.S. President, but let's face it - we all know why this is happening, doesn't matter if you're white, doesn't matter if you're black. We ALL know why he's being treated so horribly by the press and by the republicans and all those others like them.



His treatment - is because - he is - BLACK!!! Racism - with it's ugly self, pretended to be long gone, dead and buried; but it's not. Let me stop here and say this right now - this blog is not going to be politically correct in ANYTHING I say. I don't have time for that B.S. - I'm going to say it straight off the cuff as it really is.

I'm going to give an analogy of something that happened to me, which taught me, of the various kinds of bigotry and prejudice, so keep up - I have a tendency to jump around, there -you've been warned.

I worked at a place called "Best Power" in Necedah, Wi. Predominantly white, like 99.8% - this manufacturer that built UPS' - Un-Interruptible Power Source units. Basically costly units of various sizes companies purchase to keep their power up during black outs. I'm not going to break it down anymore, because that's enough. I loved working there, in fact, it was the best job, I ever had! I kid you not. However - there were the bigots - yeah yeah - oh sho'nuff there were. Some blatant in their bigotry and disdain of us black folk and some not so blatant; they were the gentle white folk, the kind, considerate smiling white folk that you would have NEVER suspected of being bigots and Lord Lord Lord - how I found out who of the quiet bigots were, blew me away and taught me something vital! Up until this certain incident, this one bigot in particular, name Bonita I think, was as nice to me as you could imagine. Always spoke to me, said good morning, sat with me at times in the morning before our shift started, -(because we all worked on an assembly line you see)- she was on one line, I worked on another. This went on for some time mind you, I'm talking about months and months where she really got to know me, vice versa and I thought, all was cool.

Rude Awakening: At this company, there was a constant call for overtime, and at the time, I did as much overtime as I could get. Which included, Saturdays. Different lines - had schedules to meet, and when due to parts not being available, those lines might fall behind and end up on overtime. The line that I worked on, happened to be one of those lines. So, if anyone wanted to work overtime, they could do so even on a line they didn't normally work on. Now this is the thing, if you choose to come in and work on the line, you must take instruction from the line leader... guess who that was? ME - ol'black me!!! Now bring in, a silent, bigot choosing to work on my line and having to take instruction from me - a BLACK person, on no!!! Oh ho-ho - here came sweet, silent bigot Bonita, walking up to the line, smiling mind you - up until she learned from our supervisor, that [ I ] would be showing her what to do. Dawn, the supervisor walked away, and I, still smiling, turned to show her how to set up and what to do. Things got really quiet, and I turned to see Bonita, reading the process book - completely ignoring me - and what I was trying to show her. And I said, "Let me set you up first, and then show you how it's done, and if you need a reminder, just refer to the process then." I, of course, said this, expecting some type of response, a question, an 'okay', a - 'let's get started' or something, but instead, I got quiet, dumb insolence - I was completely ignored.

I could not believe this was happening, I could not believe this was the same person, who for months, had spoken to me as if we were old chums and now, suddenly - she was turning red, her lips tight, her body language, closed, her eyes avoiding me at all cost. It took me a few moments for my brain to actually assimilate what this was about. Because it just didn't fit! And so, I said, "Excuse me - are we going to do this or not?" she continued to ignore me and was trying to set the station up herself, cutting me completely out of the picture.

In the nutshell, I faced a bigot, who all this time had been pretending not to be a bigot - but when it came down to a "Black" - me - daring to move above her supposed superior station to give her instruction, daring to "teach" her something, she bristled up - was appalled, offended and resented that I dare stand myself in a position before my "betters" as she felt, trying to perform in a minor, more or less, authority over her, she couldn't take it, oh no no no! Almost five minutes went by with the tension getting worse between us, two other persons on the line, who'd always worked with me, also white, shook their heads because they knew what was happening and they got incredibly uncomfortable with it. I turned, went to the supervisor, explained what had just taken place, yes - she was white too, and told her also, why it was happening, which she said, "Oh no, not Bonita!"

Ha - yeah Bonita. Anyway, because of the stand she took, Bonita; I made one too - either she goes or I go. Dawn didn't want that, because I, with the right team, and with my motivation skills that I've always had, could get the line cooking, surpassing the numbers of units getting built and shipped out and they always passed the first time through, which also saves time. They loved that about this here Negro - so she, the supervisor was not about to let me go home - guess who had to go? Yep, you guessed it, Ms Bonita was sent home.

What's the point? Multiply Ms. Bonita times thousands, NO, millions, increase her personality from an introvert to an extrovert - and put before her - A BLACK PRESIDENT!!! You get me now? Yeah, exactly! These Bonita types are in the throws of seizures at having a black man in the highest position of the land! They are having fits and foaming at the mouth that a Negro, black, colored, coon, and let's face it, Nigger is trying to tell them ALL what to do! Oh no no no!!! They can't have it, they can't stand it, they hate that he's in there, trying, working and getting things done! It doesn't matter, who suffers, why they suffer, what's fair, what's right, what's just, they cannot have a BLACK standing over them in a position of authority when, they - the white race, are the superiors and have been for hundreds of years in this country, they will not stand by and let who they see as an inferior - dare to make "CHANGES" in their white world! Oh no no no!

So now, they're greasing the palms of the media, using them to brainwash, scare and convince millions that he's weak, inept, incapable of possibly being a leader of this "White" country they claim is THEIRS! He shouldn't be in the "White" House, in the oval office making decisions, why he's just a "BOY" trying to do a, "WHITE" man's job!

I can hear them now, --"I want that boy out'ah there, right now! I don't care what it takes, what we have to do, how many lies we have to tell, how many books we have to write, how aggressive we have to be, I mean to tell'yah! When we get done with that Nigga, the example will be set with him and not another one will dare step out of their place to think they can be anything more than an inferior to us, the superior! White power! White power! White power! Now let's get'em out'ah there!"--

Yeah, I said it - that's the way I see it - because that's the way it is! O'Bama - you have my greatest sympathies, but you need to watch a few Mr. T commercials for Snickers candy bars, to quote his punch line, "Boy - get some nuts!"